I look at pictures of you because I am afraid that you would notice me staring in real life.
I looked at your picture today for countless minutes. It is closer than I’ll ever get to you for real.
I felt like I was looking at a captured animal at a safe distance.
If you knew I was doing this, you would feel sickened and frightened.
That’s why you’ll never know. Years will go by and you’ll never know.
I will never say the things that I want to say to you. I know the damage it would do.
I love you more than I hate my loneliness and pain.